Seems like the whole northern hemisphere is drowning under sweat from heat waves, everybody's half naked getting me all heated up AND i saw some posts about inter ethnic TUGs...
I like it a lot and feel concerned by that, but my views on it are so polluted by my other issues than me opening a topic about it would be a disater and I've learned my lessons about what kind of things to post in the stories sections...
So it'll be a big pic with a long but hopefully sexy or at least very informative divaguation ( almost all my story, in fact )
First, I know those I've just called "ethnic" aren't representative of their groups and they are more the product of their social environment than of their ethnicity ( same for everyone BTW ), but I still hope a cute wild Black or Arabic guy will contact me some day...before I'm really too old. Think I would tie them up now, another creative way to go on...
The pics is called "east side" because I don't know why the wrong side of the tracks is often on the east side of big cities... It's consensual - hope it's obvious younger me is smiling, drew it from an actual pic of me playing with the cat - and I've used humoristic colors ( that's for the pink tape ) and there's no gloves, masks or guns...
East side.jpg
Personal anecdotes explaining it:
grew up and lived until 18 in a small town, as a self-repressed gay and ventend it all by violent acts. Went so far I was afraid of what I could do and suddenly turned to self-degrading fantasies as a self_defense mechanism from myself... It wasn't really conscious, never told myself one fine day " Hey, let's try the other side!" but I think our minds work better than we think and they always do the best with what they have. So with me, it was to fancy having doing to myself what I wanted to do to others, radical inverted symetry.
It happened right after I moved to the nearest big city - Lyon - to study architecture. Such schools are rather high-end but public and in a typical French delusional social gesture, they placed "mine" right in the middle of a suburb knowned for its ethnic population, and riots...
So I study and live there and I need bad guys because I took victim roles in my fantasies... And I got that hot fauna right under my eyes... ( Fauna is not pejorative, we're all animals... and sexier when we stop pretending otherwise )
First use of them in my fantasies were awfully violent and offensive but I was already trying to reorientate my sexuality toward some consensual, playfull stuff and here is the little romantic scenario behind this pic:
Thought I'd find me a local crew and offer them to have fun with me against retribution or just out of boredom, we'd go to a quiet basement or chicha. Even then I knew they'd not be thrilled by the idea ( hence the guy looking quite bored on the right ) but I counted on their sexual frustration...
Even fancied the cutest of the gang would come to se me on his own at my place, sometime later
Like I said, even back then I knew it was quite unrealistic, so I'm delusional but I know it...Which takes away some of the benefit of delusions...
Lot to say about all that but I'll spare you... Only one little psy touch: This is a good exemple of how paraphiliaes are something you "catch" from your environment and then reinforce if that catches on you. No way can it be something you're born with. Didn't see them in my country town, didn't want them...
Guess that mechanism is strong with me, because I even went to find "oriental" ethnic kitschy - in my eyes - home decoration sexualy attractive by association, not to mention brands and styles, fun haircuts and even their so offensive music - the wilder it is, the better - I'm hopeless
To conclude this little "destructive fantasies survival guide" and be completely thorough:
everything has two sides, it worked and kept me out of my previous excesses BUT I had to restore my self-esteem afterward, because victim's fantasies bring their own questions and wear on you too...
Still, even today with a regular "normal" sexual activity, I fancy the rough and NC scenario more, you can reorientate and displace, the basic nature never changes once it's strongly settled.
See your fantasies and sexual life as a construction work that's always in progress, you gotta use materials that are already there but there's many ways to assemble them, so be imaginative! 
Anyway, I made the offer to some already: if you want me to include ethnic guys in some pics, feel free to ask, did some hot Latinos already, I'll do some hot Asian soon - just so they don't feel neglected ...
